Sometimes it’s just not good enough, I know now that is why I wish to go harder and further. I have always loved the idea of excellence and achieving success but sometimes I feel it is far from me until I get what I know I am missing. The truth is I do not know exactly what I am missing, but I know the things I am not doing right and knowing myself, if I keep them up, I will never achieve my goals. I want to be successful this year, I want to know the feeling of putting my mind to something and being successful in it. By the end of the year I want to be better financially and I know even though I do not know exactly why I am not there, I know there are certain habit that If I continue will keep me where I am.
I want to stop shooting myself in the foot, so I want to greatly reduce my expenses, and increase my investment. But then the moment I begin to save and become really hungry, I find myself digging into my savings, sometimes with the excuse of the savings needing to save me. The idea is that I want to be disciplined enough to work on my appetite because if I don’t I will continue eating everything I earn, To be honest food is what mostly finishes my money, not because I eat too much, but because am often t td t cok despite having foodstuffs at home and cooked food / fast food a nt cheap. Imagine spending 30,000 naira a week when I am not making much.
I also want to work on my character and integrity. The lack of money often drives me to make reckless and covetous decisions, it makes me take on jobs I do not like because of the money. I do not like doing things for just money, but now I find out that my integrity has been put into question and I need to change it and rid myself of this shame. If I can control myself and my appetite, I know I will save myself a lot. The more I think about it, the more resolute I become, but countless times I have gone back to square one. I hope I can see it through this year though.
