Years back very afraid of rejection, rejection has been my worst fear, I doubt myself alot, I doubt if I'm good enough, I doubt if I can do something, I keep mute when I'm supposed to speak out not because I was dull but because I was so afraid of getting no as a answer, I was so afraid of people making jest of me that I got it wrong. I wanted to look perfect, I struggle to be perfect with anything I want to do, I don't want a situation where someone would face me and say I got it wrong. I was so scared of failure.
My second fear is about "Love" oh, while growing up, I saw how people deal with heartbreak,I saw how two lovers became enemies,I saw trust broken between lovers, I saw cheating, I saw people living with hurt from their partner , , is started to have the mindset that I'm not going to let anyone break my heart,I grew up to fear love, I fear to open my heart and get it wounded, I fear of the unknown on how I'm going to take heartbreak,I have a flexible heart,so I understand treating a wounded heart would be very hard.
These two things are my greatest fear until a day I decided to come out of that bandage, I later realized that all I look up to, all those I see as being perfect as once be imperfect, I realized they once fell but rose up again, I realized they didn't just become a pro overnight, l learnt one can never be perfect without a mistake. I also realize one has to love freely, not having biased mind, even though it doesn't work out ,it's not also the reason to back out, there is someone out there's for each one but how do I get to meet him without trying. Everyone will find their own when it's their time but till then one should never give up.
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